"THERE ARE ALL KINDS OF WAYS TO DO IT. AN INFINITE NUMBER OF WAYS TO DO IT. REGRETTABLY, ALMOST EVERYTHING THAT COULD SAVE SATOKO REQUIRES MONEY. BUT THIS ONE WAY, ERASING THAT MAN REQUIRES SO LITTLE MONEY, YOU COULD SAY IT'S FREE. I CAN ERASE THAT MAN WITH ZERO INVESTMENT. THE LOWEST POSSIBLE PRICE THAT'S WHAT THAT MAN'S LIFE IS WORTH. ALL THE WORTHLESS INFORMATION IS BEING WEEDED OUT OF MY HEAD, PIECE BY PIECE, AND IS BEING REPLACED WITH ONLY THE KNOWLEDGE I NEED TO CARRY OUT MY PURPOSE. MAKE ALL THE CELLS IN MY BRAIN REVOLVE TO THINK ONLY ABOUT ERASING THAT MAN. I WOULD USE ANY METHOD TO KILL HIM AS LONG AS IT'S A QUICK DEATH. IF I WERE TO ADD A CONDITION, I WOULD PREFER NOT TO GET CAUGHT, BECAUSE I'M REMOVING THIS MAN IN ORDER TAKE SATOKO'S PEACEFUL LIFE BACK. IF I'M ARRESTED IN EXCHANGE FOR TAKING HIM OUT, THEN THAT WOULD BE NO DIFFERENT THAN IF WE KILLED EACH OTHER. THAT MAN ALONE DISAPPEARS, AND OUR FORMER DAYS RETURN. THAT IS THE SUPREME OBJECTIVE, THE ABSOLUTE GOAL. I KNOW THAT AS LONG AS I DON'T KILL HIM THIS WILL DEFINITELY GO ON, BUT WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T LEAVE ANY EVIDENCE, DON'T LEAVE TWO CONTRADICTING ALTERNATIVES THAT WOULD LEAVE TRACES OF MYSELF. THAT CONDITION AUTOMATICALLY REDUCES THE NUMBER OF WAYS TO KILL HIM. NOT EXPOSING MYSELF IS ANOTHER ABSOLUTE CONDITION. FORTUNATELY IN HINAMIZAWA, IF I CHOOSE THE RIGHT TIME HARDLY ANYONE WILL BE AROUND. THE AREA AROUND SATOKO'S HOUSE IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION. THERE'S AN ALGORITHM OF SHIFTING TRAFFIC VOLUME AND THE RESIDENTS ACTIONS. DO I LURE HIM OUT? DO I ATTACK? WHAT I USE FOR A WEAPON? WHEN AND WHERE WILL I DO IT? THE CONDITION OF TAKING CARE OF THE PLACE WITHOUT LEAVING ANY TRACES OF MYSELF, THE CONDITION OF TIME, ADD TO THAT THE CONDITION THAT I HAVE TO ACCOMPLISH IT IN ONE TEN, THOUSANDTH OF A SECOND FOR THE SAKE OF SATOKO'S PROTECTION. WORTHLESS, WORTHLESS THINKING ABOUT IT LIKE THIS I CAN TELL HOW SIMPLE IT IS TO KILL. IF IT WERE OKAY TO LEAVE EVIDENCE, IF IT WERE JUST KILLING, ANYONE COULD EASILY COMMIT MURDER. BUT IDEALS STOP THAT. IF YOU DO IT, YOU'LL DEFINITELY BE ARRESTED. IN THE END, THE ULTIMATE STOPPING POWER THAT MAKES PEOPLE GIVE UP ON THE IDEA OF MURDER IS THAT THEY'LL BE ARRESTED BY THE POLICE. WORTHLESS! IF SOMEONE WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE OCEAN WITH WATER AS FAR AS THE EYE CAN SE, AND HE KNEW HE WOULD LEAVE ABSOLUTELY NO EVIDENCE, HE WOULD THROW THE GUYS HE HATED INTO THE SEA! JUST TAKING OUT THAT MAN WILL BE ALL TOO EASY. I'LL LEAVE THIS CLASSROOM RIGHT NOW, PICK UP A METAL BAT OR SOMETHING ON CAMPUS, AND ATTACK THE MAN'S HOUSE. I EXPECT IT WILL TAKE TWENTY-FIVE MINUTES. IF I PLAN ON HIM FIGHTING BACK AND MEASURE IN SECONDS, I COULD FINISH HIM IN A MERE 500 SECONDS. I CAN TELL JUST HOW LONG HE'LL REMAIN ALIVE. IF I'M DETERMINED THAT MAN'S EXISTENCE IS AT A LEVEL THAT I CAN TAKE IT OUT OF THIS WORLD IN A MERE 1,500 SECONDS. IF I'M DETERMINED, ALL THE TIME HE HAS LEFT WOULD BE... DISAPPEAR, DISAPPEAR FOREVER AND DIE! YOU TORE UP SATOKO'S HEART, NOW I'LL TEAR OUT YOURS! YOU'LL PAY IN YOU BLOOD!"
In case you are wondering what the fuck is wrong with me... well there is a lot really, but this isn't from me. This is from the latest Higurashi manga, the second part of the "Curse Killing Arc." While I would love to say "read this part, it is fucking awesome," or something like that... the problem is that it is written the same way Japanese is written. Meaning- it goes from right to left, and top to bottom. While reading it vertically isn't normally that much of a problem... this is a pain in the ass. Especially when they start to run into the book binding. So I took the time to type it all out here. As to why it is all uppercase and some in bold, that is just an added touch to the insanity that already came with the territory.
In case you ever wonder how different the manga is to the anime... let me tell you this. People find Higurashi the anime disturbing. I mean the whole thing, not just a bit here and a bit here. I found one part of it slightly disturbing, and since then gotten over it a bit. As for Higurashi the manga... let's just say it takes it to a new level of disturbing. The endings for these arcs have such a completely different feel to them than what I had expected. They head in the same direction, but in the anime it just stops at a point and goes on to the next arc with the next episode. In the manga it goes on and, for me, left a pit of depression. I just wanted to go to sleep for the next day or two, and I pretty much did, in the hopes that it would just go away. I did get better... but that pit is still there... I feel it... and it has uprooted some of my nerves in a way that I thought would never happen again.
Well, with this out of my mind (kind of...) I can ramble on about other random shit... just not right now. Another day perhaps.