I sit here staring at my computer screen, thinking about all of the shit I have done to lead to this point. I sit here and think, "Is there any point to all of this?" Why do we have colleges? Why do we have jobs? What is the point of all of these things?
I sit here wondering why the world is the way it is. Why do people get up and buy food? Why do people watch TV and interact with others?
My brain wanders off to distant places. Places that have no roads or electricity. Places that will never be real. Are these places better than where I am now? Or are they just hell?
I wonder what the fuck keeps people going. What keeps people moving day in and day out? Why do they bother with their pathetic lives the way they do? Why do they even bother with anything?
I sit here staring at my computer screen, thinking about life... and all I see is pointlessness... or have I become so blind-sighted by hatred for myself, humans, and the entire world, that I can not see anything else...